CHILDHOOD SEPARATION FROM PARENTS

I was a cute, chubby and happy baby living blissfully with my loving parents the first couple of years after my birth. However, little did we know my grandparents too fell in love with me the day they set their eyes on me and wanted me for themselves. My grandparents waited patiently for me to grow up and when I was about two years old, they came to visit us from their hometown in Katpadi, with a hidden agenda. When it was time for them to return, we all as family went to the railway station to see them off. My grandmother was carrying me throughout and when the final announcement came for the train to depart, instead of handing me over to my mother, my grandmother, dispassionately without considering my parents feeling, She carried me and boarded the train to the utter shock and dismay of my parents. My grandmother literally abducted me!

Later, when my parents approached my grandparents pleading with them to return me back to them, they bluntly refused and said that they will take good care of me. And that was it, chapter closed, no more arguments! I was way too small to know what had happened and I was taught to call my grandmother "Amma" meaning Mother in Tamil language, and till I was about 10 years of age, I actually thought she was my mother. At age 5, I was admitted to a local school near my house. However, every year, during the summer vacation and holidays I was grudgingly, allowed to spend some time with my parents and siblings, by that time my younger brother was born. Year after year, when it was time for me to return to my grandparents home, my mother used to pleadingly ask me, "Baby will you stay back with me?" I would always say "NO" and go back. Thus, unknowingly I have caused my mother a great deal of distress, pain, and anguish. My mother kept all of her emotions bottled up inside her heart, until one day she revealed the entire story to me couple of years before she went to be with The LORD.

John 16:20 - Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy.

LORD JESUS REVEALS HIMSELF TO ME WHEN I WAS AROUND AGE 7

My grandparents were the first generation believers in our family, and were very pious, and through them, I got to know our ALMIGHTY GOD at a very young age. Like kids of my age, I was curious, playful, naughty and quite a handful for my grandparents to handle at times. My grandmother was a very strict lady and taught me and disciplined me well. My grandfather was a darling, I loved him a lot. He taught me how to share what we have with others and introduced me into the Spiritual World by taking me to attend gospel meetings and church services on a regular basis. They did their best to take good care of me.

However, despite all their best intentions, I was exposed to situations beyond their control which lead me to fear of darkness, devil and demons at a very tender age. The reason being, a very close relative used to frequently come and stay with us. This relative had the sadistic pleasure of sleeping with me and frightening me in the night with graphic descriptions of demonic stories and physically harming me when I used to disobey by opening my eyes out of fear and curiosity to see the devil. As a result, daytime I was okay, but night time was a nightmare. I was terribly scared of darkness! The saddest part is my grandparents were well-aware of what was happening and what I was going through, but kept silent for reasons well-known to them. They never admonished my relative, and this fear of the devil and demons continued building up inside me right from the time I recall my memory from a tiny toddler till around 7 years of age. My grandfather knew I was scared and couldn't sleep properly for fear of the devil and demons lurking around the house. He tried his best to make amends after my relative left by telling me nice bedtime stories, mostly about animals and patiently put me to sleep, before he left to sleep in his room.

One night when I was tossing and turning in the bed, restless, unable to sleep fearing the devil and demons prowling around me, all of a sudden, LORD JESUS revealed HIMSELF to me. I was so awestruck that I couldn't comprehend what I saw, I wasn't at all fearful but I felt a sense of calmness and felt protected and secure. Then, I turned towards the other side and kept thinking who was the man dressed in shining white garment standing in the doorway, totally in contrast to what I was taught by my relative. I was wide awake the whole night and couldn't sleep. For the first time the sleeplessness was not out of fear. I was too young to know what happened spiritually in my life, but I was wise enough to know that the fear of darkness and the devil and demons prowling around in the night trying to attack me was no more. The Anointing on my life was so powerful that all the tough challenges, fear and anxiety seemed to vanish away like dust and I was fearless of the darkness at night. After I met The LORD, my life was never the same. When my relative came out with stories of devil and demons, they didn't have any effect on me, I used to listen and then sleep blissfully. Decades later, our ALMIGHTY GOD blessed me with the "Healing and Deliverance Ministry." Wherein I have been given authority by The ALMIGHTY GOD to cast out the devil and demons who have possessed people. Today, the devil and demons fear and flee when I call on the name of our LORD AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST to deliver people whom satan and his demonic associates have bound.

Isaiah 41:10 - Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your GOD. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with MY righteous right hand.'

REUNION WITH MY PARENTS AFTER 8 LONG AND DIFFICULT YEARS

When I was about 10 years old, as always, I came to my parents house for summer vacation. That year too, my mother pleadingly asked me, "Baby will you stay back with me?" and I had no hesitation in saying "YES" because by then I knew that she was my Mother and I felt more protected and loved and cherished by her and I felt safe with my mom. She was overjoyed and refused to send me back to my grandparents. I completed my Bachelor's degree (B.com) from APOU.

Psalm 30:11 YOU have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. YOU have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy.

MARRIAGE AND WIDOWED

Mine was an arranged marriage, again my grandmother and the relative who hated me were instrumental in getting me married to a person who was quite senior to me, a divorcee in fact. Once again I was cornered with no choice, but to go ahead with the wedding. Even before my parents could reach, I was hurriedly married off and sent to my newly wedded groom's house in Chennai, Tamilnadu! I had no clue about the person I was married to. Day 2 of my marriage, I was at the receiving end of his cruelty. I was constantly brutally abused physically and emotionally which continued through years of my married life. I bore it all in silence, I confided in nobody. My only hope was in my LORD. Though I didn't read the Bible much at that time, I was well into prayers and used to pour out my heart to GOD. There was nobody else for me, I trusted in The LORD implicitly. The LORD heard my prayers and blessed me with two beautiful daughters, and I started living for them, they were / are my source of joy and my life revolves around them.

My husband, though earned a good salary, spent it all on himself and I never asked what he did with his earnings. But, he loved our daughters and was kind to them and every day when they went to school, he gave them pocket money. However, he never gave me any money to run the house expenses, I had to bear the brunt of it right from paying the house rental, electricity, food expenses, school fees and all other miscellaneous expenses. I took it in my stride and with a cheerful face did everything possible to make ends meet like running a restaurant, canteen, fast-food, tailoring unit, labour contractor for interior works, xerox shop and so on. My chain-smoking husband had multiple health issues and was asked to quit smoking, which he refused and his sickness and irreversible complications gave way to eternal rest, and he went to be with The LORD in Sept 2011. For me, GOD'S protection came in the form of inner peace and strength in the middle of despair.

Job 7:11 - "Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit, I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.

THE MOMENT I WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE, THE LORD ANOINTED ME WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT

On march 8th, more than a decade ago, I wanted to commit suicide. I was so tired and fed up with life, failure after failure, financial crises, fear, anger, anxiety, hopelessness, mentally, emotionally and physically drained out, that I just was craving for a way out of my situation. All of a sudden, in the middle of the night when everyone was fast asleep, the thought to commit suicide came into my mind and on the spur of the moment, I decided that that was the only way out of my present situation. The thought had been planted in my mind by satan, I had to execute it. And so, carefully, without making any noise, I went to the terrace and laid down on the cement floor and gazing at the sky, I was having this little conversation with our ALMIGHTY GOD THE FATHER.

From my childhood, I have the habit of talking to GOD and telling HIM all of my problems. And so, before I took the final leap, I was telling The LORD, that I was fed up with life, the burdens laid on me were too heavy for me to bear. I was physically, mentally, emotionally and financially totally drained. I just wanted to come and be with HIM in Heaven where there is only joy and no pain. I was on the second floor of my building and the urge to jump was growing by the second. I knew very well, the possibilities of me getting broken bones, weighed higher than me being dead. And so, I was pleading to The ALMIGHTY GOD that when I jump off the second floor, my soul may depart from my body and go to be with HIM in heaven. I begged The LORD not to spare my life and break even a single bone of my body and make me bedridden and be a burden to my family. I have immense faith in The LORD, and I know that if I had taken that leap, I would have died years ago. But, the most wonderful thing happened while I was having this conversation with The LORD.

The LORD sent the Holy Spirit and overshadowed me and there was a powerful Anointing in me. I was so awestruck, that I just couldn't believe my eyes. Instantly, I felt the presence of GOD. A strange calmness came over me, I felt strengthened and a new energy was flowing within me. And straight away I knew that The LORD didn't want me to die. I was not alone, in all my pain and anguish, GOD was there right beside me. GOD loved me enough to reveal HIMSELF to me. I was in awe, humbled and filled with joy (I cannot express my feelings in words). Still gazing at the sky, I told The LORD, "Okay LORD, YOU want me to live, I will live." Ever since I have boldly faced all situations in life because I draw my strength from GOD. The LORD is at my right hand I shall not be shaken. I am not the only person The LORD loves, HE loves everyone who loves HIM. If you are desperate and feel lost, lonely or suicidal, call on The LORD, HE will answer you. GOD didn't send us into this earth to commit suicide. Suicide is self murder. GOD has sent us with a purpose. Find the purpose and live it out so that you may attain eternal life through our LORD AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST, who died on the Cross for us sinners.

If you are feeling suicidal, call on The LORD, or call on your family, or your friends, or call on us, or take medical help if necessary. Do something and get out of that thinking mode. Don't let satan get at you. Always remember, self murder (suicide) is an abomination to The LORD.

Isaiah 43:2 - When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.

THE FIRST MIRACULOUS HEALING GRANTED TO ME BY MY ALMIGHTY GOD WHEN I PRAYED AND KNOCKED ON HIS DOOR CONSISTENTLY

My elder daughter was barely 3 years old and was diagnosed with jaundice. The doctor told me to keep her on a strict diet and bring her back for a check up after 3 days. I just couldn't believe my child had jaundice! I didn't say a word about the diagnoses to my husband, I just told him that the doctor wanted to have a look at the child again after 3 days. My husband didn't believe in miracles. But I did! I prayed to The ALMIGHTY GOD and told HIM that she was HIS child, given as a gift to me, HE had to somehow heal her and that, I will not put her on any sort of diet and deprive her of all the food which she loves to eat. And so, till the next appointment date, I kept praying and giving her normal food, but the jaundice symptoms were still there very much visible to me. I refused to give up on my prayers and continued feeding my child a normal diet till I had to take her back to the doctor.

When I took her to the hospital, she still very much had the jaundice, I gave my name and collected the token number and sat down with my child, waiting for our turn. My husband never comes inside the hospital with me, he will always be waiting near the entrance sitting on his bike and smoking away. So, it was just me and my child inside the clinic and I was still praying and pleading with The LORD, asking for a miraculous healing for my daughter. When we were number 4 in line to meet the doctor, I took my child and went to the lab and asked for a test tube to collect urine for re-testing jaundice for my daughter. The lady behind the counter told me that since we had already tested the child a few days ago, and the jaundice was confirmed, there was no necessity to do another testing. But I insisted and collected a test tube and took my child to the washroom and collected the urine in the test tube, and I just couldn't believe my eyes, the urine was transparent, not a single trace of yellow. I was so very happy and excited, I rushed to the lab and asked the lab technician to test the urine for jaundice. She took one look at the test tube in my hand and said that there was no need to test for jaundice since it is pure and not a single trace of yellow colour. However, I insisted and paid for the test and collected a jaundice negative report. Armed with both the jaundice positive and negative reports, I walked into the doctor's room and laid down both the reports on her table and proudly told her MY GOD had miraculously healed my daughter of the jaundice. The pediatrician, a very nice lady smiled at me and said that though she appreciates my feelings, as a medical practitioner, she doesn't believe in miracles. And so she told me to collect the child's urine the next day early morning on an empty stomach and give it for testing and bring her the results. I thought the doctor would applaud me, and I was very much disappointed with her attitude. But within my heart I was bursting with joy.

MY GOD had miraculously healed my daughter! It was just between me and MY GOD. I couldn't share this joy with anyone else. When we came out of the clinic, my husband asked me what happened. I said nothing, baby is perfectly alright. I came home, went into the bedroom, closed the door and thanked MY ALMIGHTY GOD for healing my daughter. I took both the reports and the prescription for taking another test, shred them all into pieces and threw them in the dustbin. I never took her for another test as the doctor had prescribed. I thanked The LORD profoundly for healing my child and kept this miraculous healing within my heart for years and never told a single soul about it. My late husband never knew about it since I never told him. But when my daughters were grown up knowing The LORD, I shared with them the very first miraculous healing which our ALMIGHTY GOD graciously granted me when I consistently pleaded for a miraculous healing.

Matthew 7:7-8 - Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.

THE DECISION TO SERVE THE ALMIGHTY GOD, AND HIM ALONE

During September 2013, I decided to work exclusively for The LORD and serve HIM alone. Having witnessed thousands of wonderful Miraculous Healing done by The LORD when I pray and intercede for others, I felt in my heart that I should stop working for humans and work exclusively for The LORD, alone. Since then our ALMIGHTY GOD stitched many wonderful people into the fabric of my life, some to help me, some to guide me and some to lead me. With their help I started organizing public meetings in community halls and had people come down to hear The Word of God and prayed for their sickness, and by GOD'S grace many people were miraculously healed and delivered from demonic oppressions as well. The Anointing of The Holy Spirit at the time of prayers is very powerful. I myself will be in awe at the wonderful testimonials people give after The ALMIGHTY GOD touches them and Miraculously Heals them of their physical ailments. Some people who are instantaneously Miraculously Healed, to name a few : back pain, knee pain, joint pain, headache, chest pain, full body pain come forward and immediately testify how The LORD had touched them and Miraculously Healed them. Some people who have internal healing like cancer, organ failures call me back after their check up to let me know that they have been Miraculously Healed.

In some very rare occasions, people do not get healed. Why? I do not know. Only GOD knows. I encourage such people to have a closer relationship with GOD to find out why their prayers were not answered and healings not granted, rather than turning away from GOD when prayers are not answered according to their choice. Rest knowing that no matter what hardship you face, GOD is your provider and protector! Nobody can question GOD!

Ephesians 6:10-13 Finally, be strong in The LORD and in HIS mighty power. Put on the full armor of GOD, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of GOD, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

ORDINATION AS A PASTOR

As I continued doing my ministry, serving The LORD wherever possible, many pastors came to know about the "Healing and Deliverance Ministry" which The ALMIGHTY GOD had bestowed upon me, and I was ordained as a Pastor by late Dr. John Solomon in a huge gathering of pastors and evangelists on August 2017.

Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me.

GOD'S HEALING TOUCH MINISTRY

And today, by GOD'S grace I have been blessed with "God's Healing Touch Ministry. '' I am also available for people who need me for prayers over the phone, house visits within my vicinity. I travel to villages to minister the Word of God and pray for Miraculous Healing and Deliverance for those in need. My children have been my main source of support, physical, mental, emotional and financial. Grateful to our ALMIGHTY GOD for blessing me with such wonderful daughters.

Matthew 18:19 - Again I say to you that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by MY FATHER in Heaven.

MY CALLING

I have been called to testify my real life testimonials to encourage people who are suffering from various sickness, be it physical, mental, emotional or spiritual issues in life. To name a few: depression, despair, hopelessness, disgrace, insult, fear, anxiety, stress, nervousness, financial crises, anger, resentment, bitterness, unforgiveness, frustration, jealousy, breakdown in relationships, worthlessness, vengeance and/or self-pity. And to make people understand that they are not alone in their suffering, GOD is there with them each moment.

I build up people's faith in GOD, that HE will bring them through their darkest hours, just the way GOD did with me. For when we are weak, helpless, oppressed, struggling and broken, GOD steps in and strengthens us as well as makes us strong, bold and fearless, thus enabling us to testify and help others in need. GOD moulded me by allowing me to be thrown into the fire, tested my faith in HIM, and walked with me each and every step of my life. The LORD has fashioned me just the way HE wanted, and GOD wants to do the same with you.

GOD loves everyone, and HE is waiting to heal and mend everyone who calls on HIS name. GOD is patiently waiting for us to come to HIM and commit our lives to HIM. GOD knows what is best for us. Sometimes, what we ask may not be what GOD gives us, but when we get it, we know that GOD gave us better than what we asked for. Let us be always humble and grateful for the love which GOD bestows upon us, knowing very well we are not worthy of his unfailing love.

Isaiah 61:1-2 - The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because The LORD has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. HE has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of The LORD’s favor and the day of vengeance of our GOD, to comfort all who mourn